So much has happened since my last post, per usual.
Things got pretty bad for about a week.I was in severe pain, I wasn't eating, and I was very weak. I thought I was going to die, and in fact I wanted to die. I had lost the will to live. There was so much heaviness, and the spirit of death was very real.
Everything has since changed. My body is still very weak from being in bed so long, but I have to fight through the pain so that I can walk again. I'm done with being sick, but it's up to me to get out of bed and fight. The more I get up and move, the easier it gets. I'm now able to get around without the walker, and I am trying to stay out of bed all day.
As I submit to Him, the Lord is delivering me of the bondage I have been under this last year. All I want is to obey the Lord and His word. I give Him all control over my life.
This is the day that the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it! Praise God for His ultimate mercy and compassion!
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Tuesday, January 27, 2015
Bye Bye Hospice
Today I finally cancelled hospice. I've been praying about it for the last 2 weeks. I'm not dying, and Hospice can't really help me anyways. All they want to do is give drugs, which I won't take. They check my vitals, but that's something I can do myself. So why do I need hospice?
It was wonderful to make that decision, because that's a big weight lifted for me. There's such a heaviness about those nurses - a spirit of death - because they deal with nothing but death all the time. I'm not saying they are bad people, most dying people need what they have to offer because they believe in the medical system. And they are very sweet ladies. But they can't really do anything for true Christians, those that believe in God for healing and won't take the drugs. Dying Christians simply need their close family and other believers to support them in the end.
Anyways, now I'm just waiting for the home health company to come get all their equipment, like the oxygen tanks and the wheelchair. That stuff will likely be gone by tomorrow.
For me, this was yet another step in the healing process. Thank you Jesus!
It was wonderful to make that decision, because that's a big weight lifted for me. There's such a heaviness about those nurses - a spirit of death - because they deal with nothing but death all the time. I'm not saying they are bad people, most dying people need what they have to offer because they believe in the medical system. And they are very sweet ladies. But they can't really do anything for true Christians, those that believe in God for healing and won't take the drugs. Dying Christians simply need their close family and other believers to support them in the end.
Anyways, now I'm just waiting for the home health company to come get all their equipment, like the oxygen tanks and the wheelchair. That stuff will likely be gone by tomorrow.
For me, this was yet another step in the healing process. Thank you Jesus!
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