Consultation

Thursday I went to Atlanta for my consultation with a GYN Oncologist. She did a basic exam, and talked to me about the next step, which is a PET scan. I'll be going back Monday for that scan. After that, I'll have a follow-up with the Dr within a week for her to give me the results of the scan, as well as her recommendation on how to proceed with "treatment." As I have already stated, I will not submit to chemotherapy. The Lord will not allow me to, and I don't want it. I have not decided whether or not I would agree to surgery (radial hysterectomy). I am seeking the Lord, and I will only do it if I feel a peace about it. Peace always comes when I make a decision according to the Lord's desire.

The results of the exam: She could clearly see the large mass coming from the cervix. From her assessment, it doesn't look like it has spread outside that immediate area. The PET scan will show if there is anything else in my body. I had originally thought my GYN had removed the entire mass during the D&C surgery, but that was incorrect. She only removed part of it. The oncologist will officially "stage" the cancer once she has evaluated the results of the scan.

The oncologist told me this is an aggressive cancer, which can spread quickly. Well, I serve a mighty God, and He can be pretty firm & aggressive when it comes to healing the sick and casting out demons. I know this from my own experience, and what my eyes have witnessed.

I have no fear of cancer, nor do I fear dying. I KNOW, without a shadow of a doubt, that when I die I will be with Jesus. However, I don't want to leave this world in this way, by sickness. I'd rather die a martyr, or an old woman asleep in her bed. I know that my God heals, and that He withholds nothing good & holy from those that belong to Him.

To everyone who reads this: You are all precious to the Lord, and He wants each of you all for Himself.

I want to put a very important question to each of you, for you to ponder when you are alone:. Do you know Jesus?

I mean really KNOW Him? Is He truly LORD and MASTER of your life? Do you consult Him about every decision you make? Do you talk to Him throughout the day? Do you act like Him, & talk like Him?

Before this experience, I never had a real relationship with the Heavenly Father. Coming so close to death as I did, and as I am now, has opened my eyes. I see things very clearly. There is an urgency in me now, that I've never felt before. There is an urgency to get to people to tell them the Truth about Jesus, that He alone can save them and deliver them from the hell they are putting themselves in. There is a strength in me, that I know is not my own, but that of God! There is a holy fear in me, for people who are lost. There is a strong desire in me now, to be Holy, to be separate from the world. I belong to God, and I can't look like, act like, eat like, or sound like the world.

Please, search out your hearts, seek your salvation with fear & trembling. You are not promised tomorrow. You do not know if your soul will be required of you this day. DO NOT WAIT. You may never get a chance to make right, to deal with the darkness of your past. DO IT NOW!!

The Lord is patiently waiting for you, but there will come a day when He will wait no longer, and He will come back for His people.

I love you all, and I fear God too much to NOT tell you the truth that is burning in my heart.

Lord Bless You all with His mercy and LIFE!

The Background Story

I feel it's important for people to know the back story, how I got to this point. In hindsight I now realize there were so many signs that I ignored, my body screaming at me that something was wrong.

I had experienced heavy bleeding for 3 weeks when I went to my local health department to seek help. The only result of that visit was an "unsatisfactory" Pap Smear and a suggestion from the nurse to start taking birth control.

Over the next month, the bleeding continued, and large clots starting coming out. I felt tired all the time. I was going to bed early almost every night, but had trouble sleeping. Then came a terrible ache in my neck and upper back, along with trouble breathing & severe headaches. About 2 weeks later, I woke up one morning feeling nauseated and dizzy. I almost passed out going to feed the chickens. My heart was beating like I had just run a marathon, and I seriously thought I was about to have a heart attack. Soon after, I went to see a GYN at the local women's clinic. After an ultrasound and blood tests, they sent me straight to the hospital, due to a critically low blood level of 5.4, for a blood transfusion. About 36 hours & 2 units of blood later, I was released, stating my blood level was stable at 7.9.

Six days later, I went for a follow-up. My Dr. & I both agreed the best course of action was for her to perform a D&C (Dilation and Curettage). She was at a loss as to how to treat me until the bleeding was stopped. She scheduled it for the next day. I didn't sleep well that night, and felt very weak the next morning. At the hospital for surgery, my blood test now showed a level of 5.1. I had to get another 2 units of blood before they would let me go back to surgery. I received a third unit on my way into surgery.

While in surgery, the doctor found the tumor, growing downward from my cervix. The tumor was full of blood, which is where all the bleeding was coming from. She said it started to fall apart in her hands. The Dr. took a biopsy of the tumor and had it sent off for testing.... Cancer.

So here I am, in my late 20's, being told I have cervical cancer. "squamous cell carcinoma with lymphoepithelioma qualities."

And here is where I started doing LOTS of research. This is something I highly recommend. I refuse to be ignorant and let the Drs have control over this situation. It's my body, and it belongs to the Lord.

Diagnosis

On June 27th, just 2 short weeks ago, I was told I have cervical cancer. The "C" word. So ugly, cruel in its suggestiveness. The shock comes, along with the racing thoughts: "I'm too young." "How did this happen?"

And then come the tears, the despair, the hopelessness.

For me, though, those emotions only lasted a few moments. Quickly I got myself together and remembered, as if I could ever forget, that I have Jesus Christ living in me, as my Lord and Savior! He alone can see me through this and ultimately heal me.

And then came the peace. Sweet heavenly peace, like a warm blanket.

I am writing this blog to share my experience, my testimony, in hopes that it will help someone else who is going through this. A testimony is a powerful thing, and should be told as much as possible.

My journey has only just begun, but I want to share it as I go along.