Hearing that brought many emotions and many thoughts, so much that I had to cry out to the Lord for peace. And there came the peace, just as He promised.
I have since made the appropriate arrangements for my funeral, which I believe is in order as I don't want my family to be burdened by such decisions. Everything is already in place and ready to go. Other members of my family went ahead and made their arrangements too, which is a very good thing.
Only the Lord knows when we will take our last breath. I do not live on the doctor's time-table. My Lord Jesus is a great healer. He holds me in His hands, and I trust Him completely. I know in my heart I will be healed.
You see, in the beginning, I had to get myself in a place where I was ready to die. I wanted to be ready spiritually, emotionally, and naturally. Now that I am ready in all these areas, I am able to focus on the Lord Jesus for healing.
It's funny really, getting a death sentence, because I've already died - to this world. And yet I've never felt more alive, now that Jesus lives within me.
Also, I've had a few opportunities to speak this month, giving my testimony to family, friends, & strangers. I've got two more speaking engagements coming up too, one at a women's church group, and another at an outreach for addicts. Wherever the Lord sends me, I am willing to go.
I don't care what the doctors say, they will see a miracle! My Lord promised, and He is ever faithful!
"No guilt in life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life's first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
Till He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand"
In Christ Alone